“Consolation prize for me this morning — Berserker did not make the NYT list, but I came downstairs to find that my daughter started reading Monument 14 late last night.
She has never read it because the way I describe it to people made it sound too scary. Apparently, she decided she’s ready.
How does it feel when your kid reads a book you wrote? Profoundly satisfying and heartening (especially if the kid likes said book).
Now, did I want to make the bestsellers list? Of course I did. Yes.
But I am reminded of my mom’s favorite saying: “Want what you have. Do what you can. Be who you are.”
That speaks so deeply to how I feel at this moment. I do want what I have — a loving, supportive family; a strong career doing something I love; twenty new ideas circling the airport, just waiting for room on the landing strip.
I am doing what I can – but I can do more. More volunteering, more outreach, more thoughtful writing directed at inclusion and truth-telling.
And I’m proud of Berserker because in it I am being who I am. The book is an expression of what I love in fiction, played out by characters I put my heart into.
I hope I can remember this moment and keep it ready for times when I lose my way.”
I’m glad I tacked that last sentence on there. It’s a little post-it note to my ego, saying, “Stay thankful! Keep your head on straight!” During the release of a book I can get really whacked out about numbers and sales and metrics. It’s easy to compare myself to others — and compare the success of my book to others.
Which brings me to another wise thing my mom told me, “You can’t run looking sideways.” I can’t go where I want to go if I’m craning my neck checking out how other people are doing.
So — eyes forward, my friends. We have a lot of work to do to make our world a better place.
Wanting what we have, doing what we can, being who we are — let’s go!
I send lots of love to you,